If there is a button on your body that you can press to end your life and everything, will you ever pressed it? Would you find the courage to press it or will you take extra caution and try to cover up the button to protect the button? Life in itself has countless questions manifested and these questions always require decisions to be made. The decisions then form arrows and point you to the path that you have chosen, the attitude to take on.

The best way to life is to see things simply. This simple theory is always plagued by complicated efforts to keep it simple. That is irony. But no one says anything about using complicated efforts. We are like driving along a road whereby other vehicles just come and go. If they signalled to cut your lane, drive slow to let them or just drive faster to prevent them from cutting. Driving at the constant speed and dancing cha cha with the car cannot get you to the destination.

Most of the time, we know what are the right things to do. Still, we refuse to do it immediately because we cannot get over the fact that injustice was suffered or thought to be suffered. And when emotions overwhelmed the need to handle matters logically, we begin to harp on it. They termed it as Zhuan Niu Jiao Jian in Chinese. Seriously, I have no issues with that. We are all humans and there is nothing wrong to voice out injustice that you think you may have suffered. For the least, give me the deserved time to zhuan. To me, zhuan niu jiao jian is a balanced attempt to accept the issue. Once there is acceptance, anyone would be ready to move on.

I am done with my denial and avoidance stage. Much as I feel guilty for being selfish and not being there, I needed my fair bit of time to make myself stronger. I can't say I got past the hurt, but I am positive that I am stronger to handle this. Stage 2 is not necessary harder than Stage 1 and I am so much more confident.

For now, its time for some damage control.