It had been a long time since I last got a decent wink. If I just turned and look back at what had happened during these past few months, I would not be able to believe my eyes. I wouldn't call it a change in my life because I am still pretty much the same person.
Graduating from school itself is a pivot, a turning point in my life. I always think that I am strong, even as I sit in my company at this ungodly hour, I still think that I am invincible. (I will allow you 5 secs to roll your eyeballs, no longer than that) There are times people climb over my head, once in a while, peed. No they didn't get up my head through their own abilities. I allowed them to go up. That doesn't mean I am weak because I am aware that if I don't allow them up, there was no way they could get past me. The very act of peeing in public reflects a person's stupidity and if that is what they want, why would I stop them?
Simple question, What does 'meek' mean to you?
To many of us, it means weak, timid and all the negative adjectives. (Blame it on the 'Primary English we followed like a Bible to when we were in Primary School) Unknown to many, the real meaning of 'meek' is 'humble'. The greatest lesson learnt in my 5 months of working is to be humble. There are many ways to get things done and most of the time, insisting your own perspectives just cannot work out. The very act of listening, thinking and acting is more important than shooting your mouth off, firing at any opportunity you can get to impress. People just don't get impressed by machine-guns without bullets. A pistol would have easily killed someone. I can't say about other areas, but my EQ shot up so high that I am pretty satisfied. I no longer feel like slapping a person left right center these days. I am at peace. While this peace is eerie, I am taking it positively.
That said, I have many choices to make currently and I really need to sit down somewhere quiet to write, think and weigh.
I need time off to sleep as well. Time to do something Jac.
Department Day... ppl are arriving. I gtg.
Jacqueline
7:34 AM
