Sometimes, there are so many things that I want to say to a person or so many issues I want to iron it out but failed to do so because I am afraid that it could be because I was too uptight at that particular moment. I procrastisnated, allowed myself to calm down and think before I reacted because I am known to everyone as being hot-headed and unreasonable and true enough, after a while, I don't feel any sort of negative emotions anymore. But that doesn't signify the end of a problem because its a deadly vicious cycle. The problems come back to you and the whole cycle repeats itself because I neglect to intervene initially. Slowly, The whole thing internalise and become part of my life. The black became white because in the process of neglecting to voice out what I feel, I unintentionally justified the rights of the behaviour. There is no right and wrong in everything, but I made it more right and I hate myself for it. I don't condone any ridiculous behaviour and get stepped all over and I have the least intention to simply claim that I am always right and all. The truth is, I don't even know what I feel because I am numbed all over.