It is almost impossible to be discerning when it comes to gauging where people are coming from. Still, you get a rough idea on what to expect and when such expectations are confirmed, somehow you feel a little disappointed.
Isn't it always the case?
Disappointment exist because prior to that, you have a certain level of expectation. Negative form of expectation is just like the skepticism we have in us. Because we thought in a certain way, anything remotely related to our assumptions confirm our thoughts. Some termed that as sensitivty. While many deny that they are sensitive, their actions tend to prove otherwise.
Come to think of that, not coming to terms with yourself is the saddest thing in the world. What people think may not matter, but we do live in a world whereby our standings depend on the perception others have of us. In order to get what you want, you need to make those that have a say think of you in that certain way. Yes, many would beg to differ. I am not encouraging everyone to join in the masquerade.
My point is simply to highlight how what others think matter a lot. It is superficial, but we live in a superficial world. People don't look beneath your skin to size you up. Even those who do don't know you well enough. Perhaps being nonchalent should never be an option because it will only kill you fron the inside, silently.
All of a sudden, you find the flames within you gets dimmer and something that you used to hold on dearly to you just seem less important. The world within you gets invaded by the world outside of you. And before you even realise it, your flame threatened to extinguish as it flickers, while you continue to stay in a stagnant position in the Catch 22.
Jacqueline
9:38 AM
