When I first heard about this, I was fed up because that would mean that the theories that are (or would be) memorised will go down the drain.
Then, when I realised that I have no more time, I actually embraced this sort of questions with open arms. This will enable me to smoke through. Its creative in a way. This is something Ministry of Education should seriously consider.
One more.
Like what we discussed. Pirates? Erm, Jack Sparrow?
Oh.. no we decided to let the police handle the case.
Jacqueline
2:12 PM
I am in serious shit. Study breaks are the best time to rest and grow fat.
Well, I need something to perk myself up eh? It's exam period for God's sake and I
deserve the sleep. I
deserve the food. I
deserve the rest. I
deserve the company. Exam LEH!
The only problem is that I have been doing those all day and night.
The studying?
I really don't
deserve them. I
promise that the
next time I deserve something, it is for a verb, not a noun.
Next time...
Jacqueline
10:02 AM
I have life. I went to meet up with my SJAB buddies.. I still miss them. Sobs. St John unite come show your might come show them how our people fight. LOL The cheer still gives me goosebumps. Check out yUnz Blog for updates.
Jacqueline
10:22 PM
Cheap and Good ProtractorThat day Ken got this protractor made in China. It is cheap and the quality is impressive. Then he flipped to the back and we laughed for hours.
HUH?
And so, we laughed like mad dogs.
Jacqueline
10:06 PM
I wasn't lying. No one was. Look what is this? I will cherish it a lot. I swear to start saving now.
Jacqueline
12:06 AM
WorthlessWhy do you care how much you are worthed,
when no one bothers about your death or birth.
You are just a substitute,
to replace a genuine product others painstakingly build.
Grumble rumbling thunder,
Selfish, rude, insolent girl.
Accuse more accuses,
Suck them all in first.
Then you will be cursed darker,
numbed from being sober.
Yes, continue to blend in,
to do not is a sin.
Feed on the selfishness of their expectations,
no one bothers about your nusiances.
Stop trying altogether,
you don't belong here
Just fucking leave me alone in the future,I feel more appreciated alone, away from what I hear.
Jacqueline
10:55 PM
Sometimes, there are so many things that I want to say to a person or so many issues I want to iron it out but failed to do so because I am afraid that it could be because I was too uptight at that particular moment. I procrastisnated, allowed myself to calm down and think before I reacted because I am known to everyone as being hot-headed and unreasonable and true enough, after a while, I don't feel any sort of negative emotions anymore. But that doesn't signify the end of a problem because its a deadly vicious cycle. The problems come back to you and the whole cycle repeats itself because I neglect to intervene initially. Slowly, The whole thing internalise and become part of my life. The black became white because in the process of neglecting to voice out what I feel, I unintentionally justified the rights of the behaviour. There is no right and wrong in everything, but I made it more right and I hate myself for it. I don't condone any ridiculous behaviour and get stepped all over and I have the least intention to simply claim that I am always right and all. The truth is, I don't even know what I feel because I am numbed all over.
In my journey of self-discovery, I seem to lose myself bit by bit.
Jacqueline
9:37 AM
My head is spinning from hunger and lack of my daily dose of tea. I need breakfast. My stomach growls like the engine of airplanes at the smell of that sesame oil dish that pregnant women eat.
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What am I still online?
I don't know what to do after the toil after rushing assignments.
The routine of turning on my computer and typing feverently has been internally processed. I know, shopping is the cure for everything. The next? A faulty computer.
Jacqueline
10:12 AM
It is almost impossible to be discerning when it comes to gauging where people are coming from. Still, you get a rough idea on what to expect and when such expectations are confirmed, somehow you feel a little disappointed.
Isn't it always the case?
Disappointment exist because prior to that, you have a certain level of expectation. Negative form of expectation is just like the skepticism we have in us. Because we thought in a certain way, anything remotely related to our assumptions confirm our thoughts. Some termed that as sensitivty. While many deny that they are sensitive, their actions tend to prove otherwise.
Come to think of that, not coming to terms with yourself is the saddest thing in the world. What people think may not matter, but we do live in a world whereby our standings depend on the perception others have of us. In order to get what you want, you need to make those that have a say think of you in that certain way. Yes, many would beg to differ. I am not encouraging everyone to join in the masquerade.
My point is simply to highlight how what others think matter a lot. It is superficial, but we live in a superficial world. People don't look beneath your skin to size you up. Even those who do don't know you well enough. Perhaps being nonchalent should never be an option because it will only kill you fron the inside, silently.
All of a sudden, you find the flames within you gets dimmer and something that you used to hold on dearly to you just seem less important. The world within you gets invaded by the world outside of you. And before you even realise it, your flame threatened to extinguish as it flickers, while you continue to stay in a stagnant position in the Catch 22.
Jacqueline
9:38 AM
Cheap and Good Protractor