You know how is it that you built a hell lot of expectations for something you placed in high regards only to have them undermined? Sometimes what could excite you bore you as well. That should explain why I always look non-chalent. It's a subconscious behaviour and probably a defensive mechanism to keep my emotions and feelings status quo.
I remember making a mental note of a saying in one of the scenes in The Lakehouse where the father said to the son that while light flatters an artpiece, it degrades it as well. The father went on to say,"Why am I telling you this, you are an architect as well and you knew it." That was a scene with emotion strings powerfully strung. Two simple lines and a whole lot of meaning there.
Sometimes, we need to view the world at face level. Perhaps that makes our life easier. Face it, we don't have too many years on earth. You never know what is going to happen tomorrow or even the next moment. One moment you are happily eating your favourite Char Kway Teow with extra black sauce and cockles, the next moment you choked on the cockles and die and no one wants to do CPR on you because you ate cockles. One moment you are having sizzling sex, about to reach an organsm, the next moment you die of excitement. One moment you are working out, hoping to have a better sculpted body and the next moment you get crushed by the gym equipments, dying a gory death.
Expect little. Even if they are surface talk. Self denial helps you to believe what you want to believe and forget what you don't want to remember. That's an empty life. Singaporeans love empty life. Lead an empty life and die peacefully. That would be a better choice as compared to attempting to lead a full life with many and ending up dead because of depression or sucide.
Jacqueline
9:46 AM
