What is the feeling of happiness? Like truely happy? I don't think I have ever felt that way before. I mean, I am happy with my current life, I love all my friends and family members and sometimes myself. Regardless of what great life I live by, I never really experience 'happiness' for more than 2 minutes. Perhaps I am way too idealistic. My definition of 'happiness', for all I know, may not even exist in this world.
Anyway, I had an interesting lecture yesterday. Wayne showed an interesting video (more interesting than his lecture). The speaker in the video brought out few intersting concept, one of which, though interesting, has many loopholes. He said that people gave because they want something back from you. That is not true. There are people who give willingly and I am sure their very first thought in the gesture was not to calculate what they would get back in return. There are people who gave just so to win a smile, to brighten someone's day because they have no idea how it feels to be happy. I don't think I ever give just so to wait for ppl to reciprocate. If I really wanted a favor from someone, I would have asked. If I am shy in asking for help, I would rather die helpless. Yes, I happen to have very thin skin for my face. That is beside the point.
Anyway, game-playing sucks. Though the speaker pointed out some interesting facts on the psychology of humans, it only makes me more resistant to what that awaits me when I step into the working world. When the time comes, everything would be just a game. You and I, we would be pawns. At the end of the day, we would die. All these, just for a stupid game. Maybe being a Hobo is not that bad an idea afterall.
Jacqueline
11:17 PM
