I feel weak in all my joints. It is as if my body will disintegrate itself within minutes. I attribute that to the Mathematics that I have been doing continuously for the past few days. Ken asked me for help in Loci, then I had to tutor Wen jin on Sine rule and Cosine rule. After which I had a gruelling session of A maths and E maths with a very weak student. I think it is my retribution. As if the effect was not potent enough, I went to my Business Finance class and found myself punching feverently at the poor calculator. Then early in the morning the next day, I found myself going through with Xin ni the first topic of her textbook.
Mathematics.
I always feel that life is made up of stages and there are some things in life that we can never avoid from. For instance, everyone will go through stages whereby they learnt how to mend a broken heart, how to overcome failure, how to understand and accept the people around us, how to love a person, how to cherish family members and many others. It is only a matter of timing. Some experienced certain events earlier while others, later.The purpose, I guess, is to help people tide over a certain period in their life and vice versa. And that applies to me and the subject too.
The bottomline is, you can never totally avoid something you thought 'unplesant' in your life even though you can slow it down. What will be, will be. And because of that, you have to face your fear bravely, face it head on.
Back to Mathematics. If you people think that I hate that subject, you are wrong. I just don't like to do things that are meaningless. I know, there seems to be this whole bit about logic and all. But like I always say, do you speak in numbers?
Maths was like plague ever since I didn't do well for it during A's. Because I didn't do well, people gave me a certain look when they knew that people flock to me to ask me teach Maths. Teaching is different from studying. I may not be a good student, but I know the way to do it simply because I can empathise with students that are weak in Maths. Many are weak with figures simply because they
didn't want to do it, not because they are
dumb.
I advise many to worry for themselves, not my students. They are doing well.
That aside, my fever is worthed it. I learnt a lot more.
Jacqueline
7:11 AM
