Seeking Solace

" The worst punishment is to see someone dear leave the world before you do. For that,I actually hope to die young. In these way, I don't have to suffer the pain again". He said so. I didn't know how to reply because I have no ready-made answer. I wasn't ready and will never be ready to broach on that topic. He thought I was and I failed him. It would be good if I can provide a listening ear. Once again, the feeling of failing others overwhelmed me. The need to redeem chucked me into a role that I never was. I willingly allow myself to be used as a replacement, to be at beck and call. Sometimes I feel like a beeper. I did that out of my willingness and I am not complaining. Neither have I once regretted. That was the one and only way to get into his mind, to know what he is thinking, or perhaps, to redeem myself. In all the attempt to make myself more available and visible, I have faded into the background. I like this new role.

Jacqueline
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