I knew that something is wrong when I feel exceptionally chirpy. I knew it. It wasn't meant to be bad news. In fact, it is a pretty good news and I am glad that Jasline has found what is important to her, all in a single moment. Because of that, I am happy for her. Jas has finally gotten her Japanese scholarship and that proves an invaluable opportunity for her to move on to another challenge in life. Three years to take up the challenge, the life that she yearns. With that, she would be withdrawing from school and with that, she would be leaving us. Just like Flora. And when the time for overseas exchange comes, the rest would be heading to US. Guess who would be left in stagnance?
I knew Jas would get it. It was even before she told me what the two good news were that I knew what they were. No more fruit eating kakis, no more long walks, no more quirky ideas, no more chats and gossips, no more motivation and chats on life, no more sports kaki... one less HR group mate. I feel very alone all of a sudden. Why am I never the one that is leaving? What about Scuba?
I am truly happy for Jas. If only I have that courage to pursue what I want in life. Whats so scary about Marketing that made me choose Finance? I am such a coward. Fate is not the plan. I am going to plan.
May good luck be with Jas and her...
Jacqueline
10:05 PM
