Tribute.
Three more days.
At least I gave notice, you didn't. You just went and took part of everyone with you.I am not angry, never felt angry at that. But is that fair? Is it fair that I have to take all the fault, that I have to feel 'sinful' simply because I have done nothing?
I just received a message through Friendster from one of our primary school friend and she asked me how
we are doing. How am I supposed to answer that? Enlighten me.
It caught me off-guard. I have tried to prepare ready-answers so that if there were any questions, I would be able to answer them without any slip, without any show of emotions, even, without blinking my eyes. I didn't anticipate this and it charged right up my face. I followed my body, not by brain or heart. I typed whatever that came to my mind. I shouldn't, but yes, I did it again.
Seven years, things could have been so different. Perhaps you are one of the person I will meet if I managed to reach the level you are at now. You have no idea how much I missed you. I try to search for small parts of you in all my friends and piece them up so that you can be whole again. I failed. You will never return from your trip. I would probably have to wait for some time. Meanwhile, how do I make this life worthwhile?
I am caught in the webs that I soun without planning to. Will I ever live in the life that I am entitled to?
Jacqueline
9:12 AM
