Seeking Solace

I feel like I am swimming against the tide. I can hardly breathe (literally because of my flu) in these events of rushing from one place to another. Amidst all, I have been thinking a lot on what lies ahead for me. Planning, not just thinking. I just have a lot more at stake.

It is going to rain again. Unlike the shower of lightning last night, it is so dark and gloommy now. I feel so sick. It had been a long time since I last had flu and now I feel as if a bottle is stuffed into my nostrils, as if my neck has multiple holes for breathing out. It doesn't help with all my energy being sucked out of my bones, like how those cups are stuck onto the skins and pulled out with a lot of force such that your flesh are inside the cups in accupuncture. I feel choked.

But me being me, works extremely well under such condition. I tend to think better, work better under stress or distress. I am weird anyway and that is not something new. I got to go lie down. Ciao.

~If only what I dreamt last night comes true.

Jacqueline
9:49 AM