It has been officially announced that the Australia trip is cancelled. For a moment, it felt that all hope is lost. I have alwyas thought that the course has a plus poimt that friends in other uni will not experience. I made it as one of the redeeming point that spur me on. Well, even though I have already gotten past that self-depreciation stage, I can't help feeling a tinge of regret. Regret without guilt, more to yi1 han4 that kind of regret.
Thinking back on what happened to me two years ago still hurts. But I am glad that I have people encouraging me all these while, special people that really touched my life. There are times that I feel emancipated from all worries and fears just at the mere thought of the amazing people around me. There are also times whereby I feel that if my life were to end all of a sudden, I would die of no regret.
That is a silly thought. I always thought of death as something nice. The feeling of completing your journey of life earlier and faster is almost like jumping a few standards and graduate when you should be in Primary school. I betterstop before I get accused of saying things that are half here or there. (Even though stoppng halfway is really saying things neither here nor there. I am just lazy can? i want to sleep) I am never normal la. Rest assured, I don't need a shrink. (Don't tell me people who say they don't need usually needs one!)
I am so tired and the folowing week is going to be nasty on me. Help, help...
Jacqueline
11:21 PM
