Colours
Colours, which is your favourite one? Colours go with the season. There was this period of time whereby orange was an 'in' colour. Then, under the influence of Taiwanese act-cute-I-am-so weak girls, pink became an 'in' colour too. But before that, gold was in vogue and if I remembered correctly, red was hot then too. Recently, green came into the picture after the elegant purple and before purple, brown was popular too. I predict grey to be the next colour that people will get crazy over. The bottom line is, after a while, you will be wondering why you bought that ugly colour and forgot that it was fashionable then.
I used to really like yellow when I was young. Everything just has to be yellow. Maybe I was way too optimistic. In my opinion, yellow is a colour that portrays the confidence of a person. I really loved yellow then. Could it be because of Macdonalds? Probably not, cos I hate Ronald as a child. (Its not hate, but I just want to use hate to cover up the fact that I was actually afraid of Ronald that clown)
I used to dislike red colour too. Red reminds me of New Year and I hate Chinese New Year, the time whereby everyone pretends to be really happy to see each other when their hearts feel otherwise. And those noisy lion dance. Here it goes, another secret, I am actually afraid of them too. It's not the ususal kind that I am afraid of, I am actually afraid of those green colour, monster-looking lions. If you are afraid of those, you will know what I am talking about.
I no longer like yellow now. I remembered how my brother used to tease me:"Yellow yellow, dirty fellow" when I was young and I firmly stood by my favourite colour. As I grew up, yellow no longer appeal to me. I began to see the different shades of yellow. Yellow teeth, yellow nails, pus, drain water... I got real cynical. I seek solace in melacholic colours like purple and gold. Then it came to a point in my life whereby simplicity became the first priority. It remains that way these few years. I fell in love with white. I painted my room white and lost 4 kg in two days. (By the way, painting is a marvellous way to lose weight)White tulips, white roses, white coloured sky, white birds... I don't like white lily though. Don't ask me why, I don't like big flowers. Aiyah, I am just not the elegant type.
Life is just the way I want it to be. White, simple. I won't use the word 'pure' cos I know I am not. Not even when I was a kid. But I will continue strive to be as 'pure' (subjected to my own definition, nothing to do with becoming a christian to be pure or atone my sin. Thank you.)and balance my life. I want to get things under control again. I want to see white coloured light, not orange or pink. white, shine on me.
Jacqueline
10:48 PM
