Yesterday was officially my first day of school and I am so glad to see my friends again. Had been a long time since I last went there and I was amazed that the roadworks are done, the road is broader and the bus-stop is actually further from the overhead bridge. Errr.. Hermit Jac. School still smell like school, except that it smells weird without the mix of Flora's Estee Lauder. They have painted the walls and study benches I realise. My SO lecturer is ok. You know he has substance. But how can he ever measure himself up to the Great CHUA CHONG HOCK. I already miss 2 of my most entertaining interest on day one of school.
Work has been taking a toil on my life. I am at fault too because I actually allowed it. I need cash. Still, I managed to make something out of the boredom. While Jas and the rest were singing in K box, I was singing on highway. Puzzled motorists whizzed past me and turned their heads 270 degree. I was thinking that if they could rotate their heads 360 degree, they would have done so. How silly it is to catch a glimsp of me on the roadside and putting their life in danger!? I am flattered if an accident happened.
Some shouted at me. Others horned loudly, see me jumped and started to laugh hilariously with their acomplice. Some pointed at me. The most well-behaved are the Blangadeshis. They just stare at their 'brothers' lovingly. Oops.
But work gave me time to think. Where else can you seek solace except the highway where you can't see a singale human being that is 1 m away from you in radius and probabaly few km apart from you. I thought of many things and ways to solve them and to pacify people that I may offend unknowingly. I am only a human and there are limits that a friend, a student, a duaghter, a sister, a cousin, a teacher can do. I figured it out.
The terrorists are at work again. Innocent lives just snuffed out in their little kill-scare game. I desperately want to understand why they do that. Are they driven to their last resort? I believe all humans are kind in nature and I don't give a hoot about how we were born sinful because Jesus died for our sin. Like the chinese saying, wu feng bu qi lang. Can anyone tell me why the terrorists do those and in the hope for what? The papers only recount what happened, how many people were dead and all. The plight of the terrorist were not highlighted. What does that make?
Damn everyone. Damn the people that wish to control the life of others.
Jacqueline
7:31 AM
