Have you ever felt so nervous that your fingers, your legs, your toes and probably your cheeks start to tremble to the rhythm of your heartbeat? (trust me, there really is such thing) As I have said,this is the month of my nervous breakdown. Even that simple presentation can get me that way. Thank god I have plenty of analogies in my head. I have never regretted studying English in college. The churning of analogies never stop. What a presentation, I was so glad that it was over in the end. Still, there are so many issues on hand.
I know, don't think so much. In a way, I think I am psychologically handicapped. I have no control over my thoughts. The thought just shifts from a simple word like 'union' to 'Charles Dickens' Hard Times' to the slimy idiotic Harthouse to a Personality test, then to DPP... The thought never ends. It just paused when everyone stood up and left the LT. And I would be caught thinking to myself:"Oh, you mean lecture is over?" That is the beauty of day-dreaming, you don't even get bored or irritated at the speed in which the hour-hand of the clock moves.
I don't know what is up with me these days.My normally docile skin starts to get cheeky and I forsee it is plannig a huge pimple party. I have so many dates lining up and a breakout is anticipated. Can I postpone them to like.. say, days that I am at home. Yah ya, dream on right? Nowadays I don't even stay at home. I built my life around my projects and classes. I have no life. Going to classes full day is so tiring. I can't believe I managed to live past the 2 years in college. Could it be that age is catching up? My body has changed together with the mark of my 21st? I shouldn't have marked that day or set a benchmark. Now my body clock is functioning at a faster rate and I am aging. Ahhhh.. I don't want to age.
Pimples or wrinkles? Pimples then.
Jacqueline
9:48 AM
