Duh Dar
yUnz: Interesting? Oh.. Use some other words. The ride was horrible.
nana: Back from heaven eh? I think it is zl. cos he is the yo yo yo kind. lol
bsea: Thanks dad. But I was truly spooked out.
I am having nervous breakdown and it is not even close to mid-sem test or any major life events.I am just nervous. That day I was on the train and I have to keep reassuring myself that the two Blangdesh workers are behaving normally and the big package they carry has no bomb and that they are not making eye at each other because they want to blow up the train. I don't know where I get all these bombing thoughts, but I know that apart from cats, I have a new-found fear.
I hate things that are unexpected, that spoils my schedule and I absolutely abhor animals that come out from nowhere or make weird noise all of a sudden. (I will be thinking if they see things that I don't see) In short, I hate things that I don't anticipate. I can still remember how I used to tell myself that I wouldn't do well and come up with all sorts of excuses that I won't do well just so to prepare myself for the unexpected. Things that is not within my frame of control either spook me out or piss me of.
Rejection is another thing that I can never take it in my stride. Of course, i look as if I still rule de facto, but it bugs me the whole day. Just in case you are thinking of me going up a guy and saying "Will you accept me? I am willing to be submissive so as to boost your ego", I need to clarify. I wouldn't do that in a million years. I am just talking about simple rejection.
I have so many things to blog but I am so lazy and I just can't find time to blog about those interesting things. And the most irritating thing is those big hoo has about blogging and all. Blogging is so commercialized now. Eeks. Everything is so commercialized. I will blog about this the next time. Oh, and blog about Dan Brown's DUH-Vinci Code, and those Plebian gals that speak in self-invented Cutish (cuteyish-cute English) These piss me off even more. Perhaps that is the cause of my fatgue even though I do nothing nowadays.
I am so drained.
Jacqueline
11:30 AM
