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Jacqueline
10:55 PM
My stress level has gone up to my neck.
Soar in the sky, Soar up high,
Find the freedom that is so divine.
Move with the wind, leave the O pin,
Away from troubles, away fron the din.
Grab a hand wheel and gauge the direction,
Hold and pause, think and learn.
Steer your life in your way,
in your hands CONTROL lay.
If it got cut, don't feel lost.
Memories stay, but life moves on.
Someday, somehow, a new one will come along.
Then you will find the ONE that brings it to you-
PROUD and Strong
And then, Love is born...
Jacqueline
10:36 PM
Readiness
It must be me. I am so consumed with guilt and selfishness. I didn't want things to turn out this way. Maybe it's the way I find fault in every situation. I have a lot to consider. I understand the impatience in your voice and I understand your plight. But can you understand mine? Can you understand what I have put in all these years? I am learning at every stage of my life and I think this is a process that I will still go through sooner or later. By agreeing quite readily, I guessed you must have some had doubts in my ability earlier. It takes two hands to clap. I am unfortunately, one of the hand. I should have done my essay instead of blogging. But looking at the rubbish I generated, I guessed it is better here.
I did it. I learnt how to be selfish. Why do I have such mixed feelings in me? Why do I feel horrible? Was it the readiness in you? Was it the slight impatience? Or was it because of my conscious? Help me.
Jacqueline
6:40 PM
Humans. It's a mere 6-letter words, yet it is so complex. How do we really comprehend the many kinds of humans in the world. There lies no reason why we should understand them. If we were to understand them, will our life be any easier? Nah..
Sometimes, it worries the hell out of me, having to see the very dark side of human beings. I was taught that no profit maximising organizations are out to do charity, that power play and tactful politic play are used to the company's advantage, not harm. That money is not evil, it's how people abuse it that makes it seem evil. Unlike most of the times whereby I disagree strongly, I am sitting on the fence this time round.
Look at this and u will understand:
http://hall15.ntu.edu.sg/forums/index.php?act=Downloads&CODE=03&id=631
I caught only the front part of the clip because I couldn't carry on watchig it. The cruelty and greed of these people affected me so much that I couldn't continue watching. At that very momment of abuse, did they see the animal's tears? Did they hear their cries of plea? Did they smell their own greed along with the fresh stench of blood? Did they feel the spasm in their sturuggles?
I wonder why God gave such people 5 senses when they clearly don't use it. He could have endowed people who are less fortunate but with aspiring dreams the very basic abilities to see, hear, feel and smell.
Singapore is such a safe place. Perhaps, it's too safe for our own good. We are unable to witness the cruelty of humans in rotten places such as China. Of course, I don't need the lecture on how China market is opening up, how we should start building our 'guan xi' with them. Your market is big and prospective. SO?
Hello Mr/Ms/Mdm Ren Ming Bi,time to wake up from your rich fantasy. Start building your weak attempts to link yourself with the word ETHICS.
Seriously, how would your future trade partners know that your next target are not bears but your fellow human beings?
Jacqueline
9:23 AM
Robots
It had been so long since I take the time to blog. It is ironic that I am blogging now at the busiest period of my school life. But isn't life about ironies?
I never fail to relax though. Without the sun, pool and songs... I still have my very supportive friends who listen to my constant complaints, who take care of me and lighten my mood. Aww.. Jacq feels blessed.
I had a great time with Yilin at the theatre watching Robots. Even though the plot is simple and ordinary, little things and tiny details made the movie extremely enjoyable and awesome. It shows how far a person's imagination can be stretched and such wonderful creativity merely makes up part of the Robots daily life. The exclusive usage of puns, the play with words and names were incoporated into the movies appropraitely. The meaning of the words were taken literally and they really put human to shame. The way we complicate the things in our life with very insane thoughts. Excellent.
The movie not only ended my tired and hectic day well, but also took my mind off very pressing issues. Thank you lin, for making time and cheering me up with all the stupid things we cook up and the extremely cheesy nachos.
Such nice place. Jacq wanna join the robots...
Jacqueline
10:27 PM
You Are 20% Left Brained, 80% Right Brained |
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.
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Jacqueline
10:42 PM
Suddenly my tag is alive! And Finally I can resort to use this, like Weny, I am going to be POPULAR! Yoohoo... Nah.. In one of my nonsense mood.
bsea: Never jio you to where???
Weny: Please don't do this to me!
they were even telling me people got BLIND, pulling their nerves, thinking that it's a strand of hair!
nana: Please go and bang yourself against the wall.
ur dear dear: *roll eyeball* You are making this hard for me... I have a lot of explanations to make now. But, glad you are here. Let's mislead them more.
flo: huh? Since when did I say anything about you not helping or suan you? Huh?
nana: I shan't tell you who my dear dear is. Serves you right for saying me and jian jun. My dear dear is sooooooo nice to me.
I hate to be misinterprted or to be accused of. I really hate it. I hate it even more when I have good intention. Is it true that as people age, they are more apprehensive towards people? They put up a higher guard level. This must be the cause of office politics. Office politics is not a result of culture clash or difference in perspectives. It is the result of human's innate ability, their instinct to protect themselves. That is what I think, not what my lecturer says.
Anyway, I find my lecturer really sweet and fatherly. I think he wouldn't be teaching us next semester. So sad. I had a nice HR lesson. At least for the first half. I couldn't listen or concentrate to the second half. So bothered.
I am going to be real busy this week. SAD and busy and stressed. Hope everyone of my friends are well.
PS: you are all invited to my birthday celebration. Just let me know if you are coming.
Jacqueline
9:45 AM
I have been so busy lately and will be busy the next week and the week after next week. I know I shouldn't have done it. There were so many things on hand, so many things to do, and I slept for 10 full hours. I really am a big fat pig.
I spent the whole day in NUS finding the OE article using their microfilm thingy. It's really time our school should fully put our school fees to good use and build something more constructive. Anyway, all the forwarding and rewinding must have made my poor eyes tired. Being the big, fat and lazy pig I am, I cancelled tuition. Again. I think by the end of this month, I will probabaly eat my own flesh since I have no money but fats.
A biggest thanks to Yilin for being such a dear, helping me with the article and forgoing your lessons just to help me. I am so guilty. For being the dear you are and volunteering to help me in my birthday, I owe you a sushi ala carte.
I had a horrible dream last night. Maybe, my night had been too long.. or.. I KNOW! It's my retribution for sleeping so long.
I dreamt of a lot of bloody corpse lying on the ground. Some were really gross and bloody. Those were the corpses of Blangadesh workers. (Ok, I admit I don't really like them a lot. Yes, one of them stole my wallet. BUT I DIDN'T WISH DEATH UPON THEM!) Then I hired two workers to get rid of the corpses. There was a celebration outside, sort of like a New Year visit. And I don't know how, but the workers dragged the corpses into tunnels. As they dragged, they put coverings over the corpses. Then one of the covering got torn due to friction and more blood seeped through, creating a trail of blood.
Ewww.. I must have read too many newspapers or that I am still spooked out my the Tampiness case of killing the kids and himself. Either that or I saw the trailer on Boogeyman on TV. Yes, I am THAT chicken hearted. Being born extremely imaginative is not my fault. When I see a comedy, my mind automatically adds on to the ridicule. That's why I find it hard to stop laughing once I start. When I see horror, I add on to the creepiness. That's Why I don't sleep alone at night. I should really get married before my younger brother goes NS. Then I can find someone to sleep with me, to protect me.
It will be a long long day today. It's OE meeting, MOR meeting, HR meeting and HR lesson at night.
Jacqueline
8:07 AM
Wonder. Wonder? Wondering...
I am wiped out. Still, I feel good. It's only on days like that that I love to feel tired and busy. It is enriching, things are accomplished, I complained about being tired, but I feel good. I woke but at 6+, flipped through my long forgotten HR notes on job design, job description and job analysis, then packed my stuff, took my breaksfast and headed for a swim.
The swim was good. (I saw my idol coach and he nods to me!) I did 30 laps in the pool. I used to do 30 laps so easily, but now... My best record for 10 laps this time was a miserable 17 mins. My stamina is slipping away, Just like any other thing. The pool provides great comfort under the blazing sun.
I thought about my life and my character, and realised that I am a big coward that does nothing but procrastinate. So, after the swim, I headed staright to the goldsmith shop and had my first pierce at the ear spine. I feel good after it was done. Pain, but good.
Then I had lunch and met Rena and Jasline at the badminton court at the sports centre again. It was fun, but we were all shagged for different reasons. I saw Jian Jun and he went to swim and suntan. He looks like a charcoal, but a very fit charcoal. Good la, small sized people need to build up the bulks. Two straight hours of badminton resulted in trembling hands and sweaty us. We went to bathe and headed to my place to prepare for our evening HR class.
Amazing... I forgot how we made it to school, but we not only made it to school, we finished the class. The two tired souls slept on the bus and me, being me, couldn't sleep. After class, I took a bus home and saw these huge cans of New Moon abalone and Narcisus Mushroom floating across the road. There were many policemen. I thought I was losing it. I seriously thought I was losing it until I saw the guy beside me staring at the moving cans. I took this blurred photo just so to make sure I am seeing the right thing.
Amazing day, but no, it had not ended.I had project discussion online at msn with the OE group. After that, I collapsed somewhere in my home. It wasn't all, I turned and hurt my ear. But still... nothing, NOTHING in the world beats sleeping. I actually woke up at 9. Now I feel like a pig.
Tuition starting soon. Tomorrow I have to meet Lin 6.30am to play the 7 - 8am slot at sports centre.
Wonder never cease.
Jacqueline
9:05 AM
Plan plan plan. Smile is free. Use them.
It's always during Chan Lai Huat's lesson that I learnt a lot of things in the area I like. Perhaps it's the nature of the subject or the way he provides examples on life to illustrate a point, perhaps it's my passion on I the study cultures, environmental influences and human's reactions and behaviour.
Expectations. It is a really BIG word. It is a word I am trying desperately hard to avoid. I have to keep it down, I have to lie low. I have to keep calm. I have to be there. I have to be the Jacqueline people perceive me as.
Maybe not. Maybe not now. I lost myself along the way when I pick up bits and piecies along The Road Of Life. Darn, I am feeling blue.
That and all aside, let's try something more uplifting.
First attempt: I have 4 major projects undone! This projects are really enlightening. They make me understand more about human behaviour and improve my writing skills. I feel disgusted by my outspoken lie.
First attempt: Failed miserably.
Second attempt: I am in a holiday mood because my birthday is coming! Oops.. Holiday mood is not a good thing for a full time student.
Second attempt: Failed.
I shan't try anymore. Since when have I succeeded in all my attempts in life?
Jacqueline
10:16 PM
Let it happen
Honey don't you live on the edge of your life
Let it happen
Honey don't you live on the edge of a sigh
Let it happen
Honey don't you live on the edge of a smile
Let it happen
Honey don't you live on the edge of your time
Baby all you got to do
Is let the rythm get to you
Baby all you got to do
Is let the rythm get to you
Let it happen
Honey take a ride on the wheel of life
Let it happen
Open up your heart to the wheel of life
Let it happen
You can put your trust to the wheel of life
Let it happen
Throw away your fear on the wheel of life
Baby all you got to do
Is let the rythm get to you
Baby all you got to do
Is let the rythm get to you
[interlude]
Let it happen
All you need is love on the wheel of life
Let it happen
All you need is love on the wheel of life
Let it happen
All you need is love on the wheel of life
Baby all you got to do
Is let the rythm get to you
Baby all you got to do
Is let the rythm get to you
Let it happen
All you need is love on the wheel of life
Let it happen
All you need is love on the wheel of life
All you need is love on the wheel of life
All you need is love on the wheel of life
All you need is love on the wheel of life
Jacqueline
10:51 PM
