Why? Why light up a spark and extinguiush it that fast? Why build up my hope and squashes it? You have done that so many times that the candle has melted and the wick is all burnt up. It is no longer reversible. You must be upset because you can't go on making life miserable for me right? Well, I am dumb too. Dumb in having faith in you for so many years, wasting my time and energy. Now I have seen life. I have seen people. I will never ever believe in you or anyone else for all that matter.
I feel dumb when my concern is not returned. I feel dumb expressing my fear and getting splashed with the basin of cold water you held in your arms. I feel dumb making time for people and not getting any response. I hate my busy life and I feel really dumb seeing friends coming out from lectures that I cannot attend. I feel dumb when friends tell me I have been taken advantaged of. I feel dumb when it bothers me that people put me down. No Jasline, I don't have the courage to prove to them that I am not what they thought I am because I feel that I am. Maybe I should go somewhere far far away. BUENOS AIRES...
My greatest mistake is to think that I know a lot about life. In life, to know anything, you have to know everything. Now, I don't want to know anything. Nothing at all.
I have to find my channel to release my pent up whatever or my internal organs will burn.
Jacqueline
10:41 PM
