I swam 25 laps in the pool today. The sun was great today and I managed to get a black butt. Black, no joke. It was nice though. I was only one of the three female swimmers there. The male swimmers are lousy. I saw them going underwater and trying to look at how a female swimmer swam, laughing and all. Oh, by the way Flo, I went to swim today with my ELDER brother. He tanned but I swam. Then he headed to the gym and continue training for hours. I went home and sleep. Big fat pig.
I am so stressed that I should be stressed but I am not. It may seem nothing to some of you all, but.. Ok, maybe you will think that I am over paranoid or that there is no point in being stressed and all since it is already over. But somehow feeling stressed ironically calm me down. I have to worry as it always seems comforting to make something turn out to be less horrifying than I thought. It's a psychological trick. To trick myself. Ya, I am a wimp. I dare not face the truth. But who cares, I am happier and as long as I am happy, who cares? See, I am doing it again.
I am meeting Flo tomorrow for a swim tomorrow. Luckily I wore swimsuit 2 today. Maybe I should buy another one. Make it a swim suit 3. Chatting with win and talk of our sec 1 days, the endless laughter. I can't believe 7 years has passed. The irc, kors, ah lians, stars made from straws, frienship bands... Argh.. I can't believe it's 7 years. I guess I have learnt a lot During the seven years, there were death, crushes, pain, pressure, fun laughter, scream, sweat, tears...
Jacqueline
10:57 PM
