Burnt out...
I am jaded. I don't know what is expected of me, what I expect of others or what is happening around me. The expectation on me is too great for me to shoulder. Ask around, which tuition teacher teaches 4 subjects for $150 dollars while fetching the pupil
home and playing the role of a part
time nanny? Which friend agrees in doing everything and even carrying your racket
home after a tired game when her own bones are cracking under her weight? Which sister spends all the hard earned
money in buying what her younger brother desires? Which woman in her early 20s, in her right state of mind, will bother to spend
time with 10 year old kid at
home just so to ease others burden? I know, I rant. I am not complaining about the sacrifices because I could have rejected the above all. I don't even want to claim recognition over them. All I want is a break. If i did not volunteer for something, don't EXPECT me to do so. It's something like you help and the expectation builds on you. Then you try hard to meet the increasing expectation. You try and try and eventually you lose it. I am losing it. I am tired. I am a human. I cannot be Miss Nice lady all the
time. I have pride, I have temper. I need a break.
Jacqueline
6:51 PM