I am feeling...sick
I didn't fail my Accounts??? I got a credit? There must be a mistake. How can it be? Life is so strange. Maybe life is unpredictable so that our life can be more colourful. I feel mixed emotions. I feel relieved, for I need not waste Dad's money to retake accounts. But at the same time, I feel apprehensive. What if there is an error? The possibility is high because only I knew how badly I fared for accounts. I guess even if I really fail, I deserved it. But what surprised me most is my Business Computing result. I actually got a distinction.
We had a celebration for Yun's birthday. I over estimated myself and my ability to get things done effectively. Although the cock up with the pits was not within my control, somehow, I felt that my bad luck rubbed off, thus spoiling the celebration. Thank God I managed to contact my auntie before the person came to clear up the misunderstanding. It's always smart to have a backup.
The fear of failure is really taking over my life. Atychiphobia, they call it. I know, who doesn't fail in life? But the very thought of starting a second time irks me. I am truely afraid. But I seriously hope they made no mistake. The higher you climb, the harder you fall. Angel, stay with me.
Jacqueline
7:35 PM
