I am still dreamy...
I was tidying up my room and that population multipliying CD when I came across the lyrics of this song. It never got HoT, nevertheless, I found it inspiring. I used to think so too, it's just that the growing years have hidden this song right to the back of my mind. Seeing the major dispute between Iraq and US, going through the process of the Korean hostage death and witnessing the diseases and destituition people faced in the world, I really wished for peace. When I was young, the only peace I know is the freedom from Mum's nagging, the enjoyment of watching a television programme without any interruptions. It has never dawned to me that true peace, like life, arises from the simplest thing in life. Our basic necessities, health, sheltar, food. I have stressed umpteen times on how we should be satisfied with the little things we have in our life and I can't stressed enough. Look at the family members and friends around you. Almost every hour, there is a someone beside you. Even if they do not speak to you, do you feel lonely? Have you ever been thankful to them for just being by your side? Have you taken them for granted? Love them the same amount you love yourself and you will feel that life is much more meaningful that way. Oh yah, the lyrics.
Dreams, how true are they? Are they the third (and possibly far more) of ourselves? I had been having recurring dreams for the whole week. In fact, for the whole of last month, I remembered each and every dream I dreamt of. Is that a siren or a false alarm? Yes, I dream even during the day. Perhaps my thoughts are too tired of being locked up such that they haunt me in my dreams. For the seventh day of my week, the same person had been appearing in my dreams. Diffrent setting, different time, different place but the same person. What exactly is wrong?
No, the dreams were not menacing. But they were dreams that carry mixed emotions. While the scientific part of me urges me to link dreams to my daily activities, the other part of me strays to the belief that dreams, in the same way, encompass yet another entire dimension of experience, a world as yet unexplored by most, where a fascinating sphere of activity awaits investigation and possible harvest for greater fulfillment in waking life.
Maybe dreams improve our waking life, supporting Shakespeare's age-old claim by MacBeth that sleep and dreams are the "chief nourishers in life's feast" But how do I move forward? How do I get past this stage? It feels like a lucid dream, thank God.(Lucid dreams are uniquely different. One realizes that one is dreaming while the dream is still happening. The scene often suddenly expands in richness and color as the dreamer becomes aware that the world being experienced, although appearing utterly real and believable, is only a dream and that she or he is actually safe asleep in bed.) Otherwise I would have peed in my bed or start my teeth grinding routine, or even sleepwalk and get hit by a car as a result. Dreams... Do you believe in them?
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Jacqueline
9:29 AM
My life
One more week marks the end of my holiday. I had been so buried in my work, so deeply buried underground that I had lost touch with the world, lost track of television programmes schedule.
But I have enjoyed myself thoroughly. Children are the answer to little miracles in life. Of course, they are also answers to little tradegies. Anyway, that is not a question. Catch this.
Just that day, we went on a Sentosa outing. That was technically my last day. I paired them up and had to partner one of them because he did not have a partner. He is the younger brother of the twin and the twins look extremely alike, such that many teachers had difficulty in separating them. Big round eyes, big round face and big round body, the brothers are my favourite. Their parents, a very nice and friendly bunch came along too. During lunch time, I heard my partner telling a small group of friends(they were all surrounding him, kneeling down eagerly while he sat down on the canvas sheet)
Him (smiling):"I Love Miss Foo leh!"
Friends (giggling):"Yeee.. hor hor! you say love! Then you want to marry her or not(giggles)?"
Him (sad) : "I also don't know, (pause for a while)But when I Old she passed away then how?"
I almost spat out the bee hoon that I was enjoying very much. Kids and the things they say... And that is not the end..
Friends: "huh? Then you want or not? If yes then I help you tell her ok?(giggles)"
Him (scratching his head, frowning hard): I don't know..
Him (round face lit up, pointing to the girl in front of him):
AH! I know, I marry you lor!
If I wasn't in the position of a teacher, I would have laughed and rolled on the floor.
Children, they are so naive. I hate to think about how their life would be when they grow up, when troubles start to come, when problems cannot be solved simply by 'marrying another person'. They still have so much to learn... They melt my heart.
Jacqueline
8:55 AM
I don't know how I feel. I saw him on friendster, not adding anybody that links to me and immediately felt remorseful. We had been very good friends. Perhaps I shouldn't have gone with the crowd. Perhaps I should standby you. But odds were against you, they couldn't see your point and siding you would have been holding a sneeze at gunpoint. I have in turn betrayed my thoughts. Really sorry. Let's leave things as they are. I apologise if I had indirectly made your life miserable in your teenage days. Don't sue me,I admit guilty.
Jacqueline
8:48 AM
I received this from one of my friend. Read and think about it!
TWO TOUGH QUESTIONS
Question 1:
If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids already, three
who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally retarded, and she had
syphilis, would you recommend that she have an abortion?
Read the next question before looking at the answer for this one.
Question 2:
It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote counts.
Here are the facts about the three leading candidates.
Candidate A -
Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologists.
He's had two Mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10
martinis a day.
Candidate B -
He was kicked ou t of office twice, sleeps until
noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every
evening.
Candidate C -
He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks
an occasional beer and never cheated on his wife.
Which of these candidates would be your Choice?
Decide first, no peeking, then scroll down for the answer.
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Candidate A: is Franklin D. Roosevelt.
Candidate B: is Winston Churchill.
Candidate C: is Adolph Hitler.
And, by the way, the answer to the abortion question: If you said
yes, you just killed Beethoven.
Pretty interesting isn't it? Makes a person think before judging
someone.
Never be afraid to try something new.
Remember:
Amateurs built the Ark
Professionals built the Titanic
and in case you never saw this one..! ....
Can you imagine working for a company that has a little more than 500
employees and has the following statistics:
* 29 have been accused of spousal abuse
* 7 have been arrested for fraud
* 19 have been accused of writing bad checks
* 117 have directly or indirectly bankrupted at least 2 businesses
* 3 have done time for assault
* 71 cannot get a credit card due to bad credit
* 14 have been arrested on drug-related charges
* 8 have been arrested for shoplifting
* 21 are currently defendants in lawsuits
* 84 have been arrested for drunk driving in the last year
Can you guess which organization this is?
Give up yet?
It's the 535 members of the United States Congress. The same group of
idiots that crank out hundreds of new laws each year designed to keep
the rest of us in line.
Jacqueline
10:18 AM
!!!!
So much for the holidays...I have been summoned back to the underground because Chicken Pox monster is still not ready to face the little monsters over there. After the dramatic steamboat farewell lunch, I am going back again. And this Thursday, I will be off to Sentosa, a second outing with them! Tsk..Tsk..the most unusual holiday in my life. Then again, Its good learning experience and I get to observe children's behaviours.
Thanks Flo, my cough is much better. Don't worry, Mdm Pomfrey will heal me with some chocolates. Ps: Leave the heroes of your fantasy out of my tag. All this unknown that you conjured out of your fantasy, they are too exciting for me. I have to resort to answering tags in my entry, thanks to nana and Flo, the ultimate Spammer!!! Nana, I will get you for that when you are back. No more Jays for you. All for Win! lalalalala..And I am not going to tell you where we got that, Flo..
Jacqueline
10:06 AM
Back!
Today I saw the sun! The bright sun! Guess living underground has inevitably made me into a primate. I took a half day leave. Will be back at 12pm. Today is the last day of work. Yah, I have mixed feelings. Managed to learn a lot, and I really enjoyed my working experienced there. Managed to learn how to get along with everybody depite their flaws. Going for Yoga lesson in 10 more minutes, so I need to hurry.
Just last Saturday I went to Lot 1. They were holding a Capital superstar thingy for the children and I caught sight of some of the participants. I was digusted at most of them when I saw what they were wearing and how they were behaving. The girls, the correct word is !trashy!. (The boys were perfectly fine)They were wearing tubes and dancing as if the judges are paedophiles, moving their body in the slow and sleazy way touching themselves. I felt like puking. Tubes and halter neck and a slash over the body and neck, covering only her nipples, revealing an empty cleavage... I was turned off. Felt the urge to lash on the mother. They are only 5 to 9 years old. Why taint their innocence? Posh, glam, sex and what's new? Does being a superstar means trashy, sexy? How sexy can a breastless child get? I hate the fact that the parents manipulate their children's life. I left after seeing an angelic boy playing his violin, wearing a tuxedo and a vest. The difference between the two sexes.
I must be a man trapped in a female's body. Don't get me wrong, I am perfectly straight. But vanity, it's just not in me.
Jacqueline
8:06 AM
Resolutiuon
I am coughing my lungs out
feeling..
(It's weekend!)
What is your strength in resisting something that you wanted very badly? How strong is your resolution in maintaing your point of view, in abstaining from junk food crave, in preventing your mind from thinking of things that you don't wish to be refreshed of? In any case, nothing can be as complicated as to prevent your thoughts from moving into the locked up vault. In the process of trying not to think, you will be refreshed of what you do not wish to think and before you know, you have already thought of it.
How many times have we tried to control our thoughts and ended up worrying ourselves even more? We think, we got worried. We try not to think, we got more worried. Life, in it's unique way, operates in the same way. Most of the time, in our attempt to control, to takeover lives, we tend to make ourselves less cheerful. So, live your days as it is. Simple, peaceful. Perhaps you will gain more out of it.
Let's face it. It's the little incidents in life that make us reflect upon our daily behaviours because we often find ourselves too absorbed in the on-goings as to reflect on our behaviours. Therefore, treat each normal day as a blessing. Aim for Simplicity, not Glam.
Jacqueline
9:41 AM
I am feeling...sick
I didn't fail my Accounts??? I got a credit? There must be a mistake. How can it be? Life is so strange. Maybe life is unpredictable so that our life can be more colourful. I feel mixed emotions. I feel relieved, for I need not waste Dad's money to retake accounts. But at the same time, I feel apprehensive. What if there is an error? The possibility is high because only I knew how badly I fared for accounts. I guess even if I really fail, I deserved it. But what surprised me most is my Business Computing result. I actually got a distinction.
We had a celebration for Yun's birthday. I over estimated myself and my ability to get things done effectively. Although the cock up with the pits was not within my control, somehow, I felt that my bad luck rubbed off, thus spoiling the celebration. Thank God I managed to contact my auntie before the person came to clear up the misunderstanding. It's always smart to have a backup.
The fear of failure is really taking over my life. Atychiphobia, they call it. I know, who doesn't fail in life? But the very thought of starting a second time irks me. I am truely afraid. But I seriously hope they made no mistake. The higher you climb, the harder you fall. Angel, stay with me.
Jacqueline
7:35 PM
time...
I really feel like blogging but I am late for my work. Wonder was it food poisoning or sheer fatigue, my tummy is upset. Yesterday was a long day. It started at 8.30am to 7pm underground. I resurfaced to earth at 7.10pm, answered the never ending smses and went to tuition from 8pm to 10pm. It was 10.30pm when I reached home. Luckily I boughtmy BBQ food yesterday. I knew that I wouldn't be free to do all those today. But then again, I loaded too much and now my refridgerator is down.. I still have a lot to blog but time doesn't allow it. I need an injection, a dose of cytokinns (happy hormones)...
Jacqueline
7:43 AM
beauty
Beauty is not in the face;beauty is a light in the heart
~ Kahlil Gibran~
Aristotle called beauty "the gift of God;", Socrates called it "a short-lived tyranny;"
Theophrastus, "a silent deceit;" Theocritus, "an ivory mischief;" Carneades, "a sovereignty which stood in need of no guards." Every word has its own meaning and the definitions of words depends on the person's character. "Beauty", some people treat it with utmost reverence, some people scorn while I simply wave it away.
"Our body is only a shell. When we die, our body is cremated. But what's left is our soul. If we live an honest life, if we are true to ourselves, nobody can take the beauty away from us." That is what Daddy taught me, and that is what I advocate. Beauty is a blessing, but not a privilege. Being beauty doesn't mean that you can be spared from any punishment that you deserve. Being beauty doesn't mean that there is no need for you to spare others from your tantrums. Being beauty doesn't mean that the world is at your mercy.
There are some people who has an ugly shell and a rotten soul.
I met one yesterday.
I am not saying all these in hope that the world will shift it's attention on the less fortunate shells. ( I don't have the ability too.) Neither am I blogging this to console anyone. They are just thoughts.
The stars of midnight shall be dear
To her; and she shall lean her ear
In many a secret place
Where rivulets dance their wayward round,
And beauty born of murmuring sound
Shall pass into her face.
Three years she grew in Sun and Shower
~William Wordsworth.1770-1850~
Jacqueline
2:14 PM
childcare..
Ok, I won't be blogging often. This is what that happens: MY DEAR FRIEND< YILIN< was infected with chicken pox and Jacq the great was chosen by her golden finger to replace her in that underground childcare for 2 weeks. 2 WEEKS!!! Yesterday was the first day and I am throughly Amazed! The kids! They are hyperactive. To think that I have been blogging so much about them that I have to work with them. Maybe I am really a psychic. I want kids and I worked with them. Erm..How about wanting a bungalow? Maybe I can try to focus my energy!
I am late for work. Thank God tomorrow is public holiday! I will be able to blog, to tidy my room and to plan for the BBQ. Otherwise come BBQ this Saturday and they will be bbq ing wild cats. Ooops! erm.. Need to go. Am I hallucinating or can you people hear that? "Miss Foo, Miiiissss Foo, Miiiiiis Foo, Misssssss Foo, Miss foooooo... Oie, I call teacher first hor! U shuddup la, so kaypoh, I then leaderla. stupid dum dum!...Argh! SHUT UP!
ps: I will be underground. I would be living like a mole that never comes up to find food. So people, get me after 7.
Ps: I went to a tea ceremony and realised that my auntie's daughter's boyfriend is Sir Bruce. Was so tempted to shout,"lao Bak Sai" in his face to make him embarassed. haha.. oh I am late!
Jacqueline
7:19 AM
