Life is so strange.. we want to forget something but in order for us to forget something we must remember what to forget. That double the pain. Why are we put in the world to suffer so much. Exams are over but the emptiness, the anticipation, the anxiety is still there. Life is such a bitch.
Today my brother had his CIP. There was a Sec1 assigned to their group and the poor boy, being Sec 1, was amatuer to asking people to donate. He was shy, so he on;y managed to mutter: "donate?" That set an uncle into flames. He grabbed hold of the poor boy and shouted at the top of his lungs:" You think I can'y understand what u
say? Boy, I am highly
eh-zhuu-cated. Look, I am reading newsapaper! ( with that, he shoved the papers into the poor boy's face) Don't think I don't know what you are the word
mean? You better apologise or i can call the police one! Duh?? Then he made the boy apologised thrice while grabbing his arm. Nuts! When the thing was settled, he walked away, grabbing people's hand and asking them, "What would you do if you were in my shoes?" Here comes the funny part, here this if you are already upset by the Singaporeans here. A Malay guy answered,"How the hell would I know?". No, this is not the best part. Get ready: The man was pissed off by the reply and shouted, "If you don't know, get out of my way. Fuck.. Fuuuu... and his dentures dropped on the floor with a clak! My brother was too shocked to react. He went around to the back and together with his friends, burst into laughter. The uncle, hurriedly put the dentures back to his mouth and walked away. I thought this kind of stuff only happen in movies, but I guess not..
Yesterday I walked to lot 1 alone to get my therapeutic candies. I walked there, listening to my CD player when I heard a loud hitting sound and a scream. I saw a lady, about my age hitting a guy who is on his stationary bike. The guy sat there like a stone, while the girl when out of control. People were looking and I was kind of shocked to hear the commotion because my CD player was tuned to the highest volume. I did my shopping and when I came out, there was a police car parked in front of the bike. the man and the woman were at a less noticecable place talking. The lady was staring at him straight in the eyes, standing near him while the man stoned himself and stared at the ground.
I didn't know what happened, but I can see the hurt, the pain and the disappointment in the lady's eyes. The guy, he was filled with guilt, remorse and perhaps a little pain. I felt sad for them. How could anyone shout at someone she once loved and most probably still love? Were the talks about everlasting love plain bullshit? What makes the feeling turn sour? Why is the world created in such a way that we suffer? They said that we are paying for our sins. What have we done to deserve all these? Don't bullshit me about God and sins. I hate accusations! What if the meaning to life?
Jacqueline
5:34 PM
