I have been feeling real moody these days. I am sure the "moodiness" rose from my multiple emotions.. There are times I feel so confident of myself cos I am used to successes, there are times whereby this same confidence plunges to knee deep because the reminder of past failures. The pain is no longer excruciating, but it left a deep and ugly scar running across my heart. My heart is crossed out, it says"No Entry" and I feel that I would never get back what I have lost. Nothing would ever win my heart, my faith... I had wanted so badly to start afresh, to fight again but it is reallt difficult to put the past behind. No words can capture exactly how I feel. This complexity is beyond the descriptions of words... It doesn't affect me cos I know I am strong enough to survive. Some people say that by not thinking of a certain problem, it is a form of escapism. If escaping makes you feel better, why not? Read the Cleo for January and find the horoscope kind of accurate. My horoscope for january says:
ARIES
Money: Your competitve nature has driven you to a position that will bring more cash but now, slowing down to check out detail will take you to greater heights and save you from unseen hassels.
Body: If your drive and focus to stay in shape starts to slip, getting mad with yourself won't help! Find the energy to keep going or give yourself some time off.
Soul: This is your chance to shine so don't let past stuff-ups or dramas hold you back. Believe in yourself and go create the life you want --- its within your reach!
Sort of like the one for soul. It gives me some positive vibes. BUT right now, I am late for tuition with JGL daughter. Speaking of which, I feel extremely guilty for bitching on her that way though i still feel that she deserves it. I shall open one eye and close the other. For the sake of my school textbooks and othe expenditure... You can do it, Jacq!
Jacqueline
7:28 AM
